I lost in you

Year 2027!

Standing in the centre of mumbai bus stand, two hearts achingly looking at each other.

Both hearts have many unsaid emotions, but still both of them refuse to utter a word.

She had to take a local bus to the railway station, he had to take a straight bus to his place. Aman parents are very much practical. He has all the resources to go in a car, but they refuse to give him a car, he himself choose public transport.

'So that's it! ' she said and smiled,

Her eyes are said 'I love you' in hundred languages, but his eyes never try to understand, what her eyes actually conveyed till now.

'Hmm.. That's it? Why? Why are saying like that? ' he said,

She looked at him, like her whole existence depends on him.

'Why? Why are you looking at me like that? ' he was confused by her way of looking at him,

A horn interept them. They looked at the bus that coming towards them.

'The bus, arrived' her voice is slow and her emotions are died down.

'Is it still time for your train? ' he asked, his voice seems desperate,

She looked at her watch, his eyes travelled to her hand. His eyes cautiously looked at her,

'I have.. to go' she said looking at him, her eyes capturing his face without missing the fraction of seconds,

'Hey, let me come with you' he said suddenly,

'Huh?! ' she was confused,

'See, I have plenty of bus to my hometown. It's our last meeting, not practically but, see you do have internship extension for a week and you will vacate hostel after that, and I'm on leave till next Sunday. I will not see you.. So let me accompany you to the railway station' he said,

Yes, she just have a week extension but he have a month including his leave on this extension.

Infancy grandfather is in hospital so she's going to look after him

Work extension are depends upon the leave taken by the certain individual. He has a month cause he's taking a whole week's leave in his work extension period, so he gonna work extra days.

'Okay' she said, by each second it's very hard for her to depart from him. The thought of not seeing him anymore makes her heart swells with agony.

He ran to the nearby store,

'You're making me sick, Aguvanshi' she muttered looking at him,

He bought a 'Dairy milk ganache' chocolate and a water bottle for her.

'For you' he said, his face a little calm and his eyes are little tiresome,

'For me? ' she asked not accepting the fact that she's falling in love with him again and again.

'Hmm? ' he questioned,

'Thanks' she said looking at him a second more,

'Oh god! Why are you looking at me like that Ancy? ' he asked,

This is, when the whole college address like infancy, he's the only one take this name. Ancy!

Whenever he calls her by that name, she feels like, he owns her.

'Let's go, Aman' she said,

They took a share auto to the railway station. He sat so close to her due to the crowd. For the first time, she feels everything is right.

She just want to witness the world with him being tagged along her. This three hours went amazingly beautiful. She felt alive, because of him.

Strangely, the most hated crowd of mumbai seems so good to her, cause he holds her hand.

The most feared strangers turned out to be the witness of her resurrecting unrequited love.

The most loved friends, started to irritate her by the numerous messages about their time together.

The most liked foods of her started to get jealous, because her attention is only on him.

They reached the railway station, suddenly the long distance which used to irritate her for taking more time escorted her faster than she expected..

He took a twenty rupees from his purse and gave to the auto driver, he started looking out for the platform.

In the mere time, she exchanged her twenty- rupees with Aman's twenty rupees with the driver.

Childish, isn't?

It's not!

Strangely, everything happening at the perfect time today. The train which often took longer time to arrive, now proudly standing in the track.

The auto came faster today!

He took her inside, made her sit on her reserved seat. The train horn sound heard, it was hard, saying good bye to each other.

'Bye, Aman' she said, her eyes never leaves him. For the first time, his eyes turned moist.

Why!?

A feeling of separation?

Separation of certain person?

'Bye, Ancy' he said with a pause, he went near the door and looked back.. For the very first time, his eyes conveyed something which unnoticed by infancy.

The train started moving, she touched the window railings, he touched her hand. They both felt various emotions in them.

She, the heartbreak!

He, the hurt!

'Aman, Your.. ' she started,

Her voice doesn't reach him cause the train horns and train sound!

'Aman, I was lost, when I saw you for the first time.. Till now, I wasn't found, even by me' she said,

She's getting away from him..

She's going..

He didn't hear, but he saw her.

Her lips!

The movement!

The word!

He stood there not knowing what to do, he just want to run behind the train and see her again.

The words,

'She's lost, but wasn't found even by her'

He muttered,

'What is the meaning of that? ' he looked at the disappearing train,

But, he didn't,

He didn't run behind!

He stopped!

*****

Present!

Dear,

It was 2023, I saw you for the first time. The pair of eyes, that peeped out from the number of eyes that looked at me newly. Still I remember, the excitement you ignite in me the moment, I saw you.

I never thought, you would capture the entire place in my heart. But, hear me out, I'm totally lost man. Lost in you.

Completely, then why am I writing this to you, even though I know you won't read books.

See? I said right. I'm completely lost!

The curiosity and excitement in me make me undeniably attracted to you.

Thank you for the memories darling!

Infancy folded the letter and kept it inside a wooden box which has uncountable letters in it.

It's her routine to read letters, it's her letters which she used to write for him. Whenever she misses him, she'll write a letter and keep it safe in a box.

Now, the box is filled by letters and her heart is overflowing with love.. How sane!

It's been two years,

The memory of him sending her off on the railway station, etched in her heart.

Lastly, they saw each other at their graduation. They couldn't talk much, its not like he didn't try.

Cause, infancy had a task of handling her family and friends.. She have a big friends group.. Even though they didn't talk much, both conveyed everything through their eyes.

She doesn't know about him.. But to her, his single glance is enough to make her life.

She misses him a lot, whenever she crosses his name in ads, cut outs, etc,

Whenever she hear something related to him, whenever she saw some meme about couples, whenever she saw couples on the public area.. Whenever she witness old couple.. Each second of her existence remembering him.

Every second her heart ache to see him, it's just keep on remembering her that they were not together and that kills her. But, the thought of them living Under the same starry sky keeps her alive.

You turn him into poetry,

Because you can't have him

in any other way!

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